In the midst of all the transitions life has thrown at us these past couple of months, Z and I have also quietly been working on paperwork. Filling out applications, collecting past year's tax information, making more copies of our birth certificates and marriage license, printing off family photos, and stressing out a bit about where we're going to get the money we need for little boy #3.
That's right. The great paperchase has officially begun.
And it feels different this time around.
Different because we know what we are getting into this time. We know how the process works and we know at least what the basic steps are. We know that without a doubt all the stress and worry and waiting will pay off in the end the minute we hold that little boy in our arms for the first time. We know that things won't be easy but that we can do it. We CAN handle this.
The first time around, we weren't parents yet. We didn't know how this whole adoption process worked, or more importantly, how it felt. We were excited, anxious, nervous, and impatient...
This time things are different. We aren't doing things the "normal" way (even in the world of adoption). We aren't putting in an application and waiting in line for a referral. Instead...we already know who little boy #3 is.
And he's precious. And perfect. Just the way he is.
He's already a part of this family; and he will always be a part of this family even if he never comes to live with us. He's our sons' little brother.
So here we are, in the midst of the paperchase. Excited, anxious, nervous, and impatient.
Its different this time....and yet the same, too.