Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Different this time around...

In the midst of all the transitions life has thrown at us these past couple of months, Z and I have also quietly been working on paperwork. Filling out applications, collecting past year's tax information, making more copies of our birth certificates and marriage license, printing off family photos, and stressing out a bit about where we're going to get the money we need for little boy #3.

That's right. The great paperchase has officially begun.

And it feels different this time around.

Different because we know what we are getting into this time. We know how the process works and we know at least what the basic steps are. We know that without a doubt all the stress and worry and waiting will pay off in the end the minute we hold that little boy in our arms for the first time. We know that things won't be easy but that we can do it. We CAN handle this.

The first time around, we weren't parents yet. We didn't know how this whole adoption process worked, or more importantly, how it felt. We were excited, anxious, nervous, and impatient...

This time things are different. We aren't doing things the "normal" way (even in the world of adoption). We aren't putting in an application and waiting in line for a referral. Instead...we already know who little boy #3 is.

And he's precious. And perfect. Just the way he is.

He's already a part of this family; and he will always be a part of this family even if he never comes to live with us. He's our sons' little brother.

So here we are, in the midst of the paperchase. Excited, anxious, nervous, and impatient.

Its different this time....and yet the same, too.

7 comments:

Jenny said...

Yay! Congratulations! I know you've been contemplating this for awhile. Hope it's a smooth process for you all.

Amy said...

I am just SO incredibly delighted to read this post Chanda. Congratulations on working towards bringing home your son and your boys' little brother. Can I ask how old he is?

It makes sense that this would feel much different this time around. You're seasoned adoption and parenting pro's now! :)

Amy Fabu

Leslie said...

Woo hoo!!! So excited for you and praying for you in this time of waiting and preparing.

Rachel said...

Congratulations! I can't wait to see a picture when you're able to share. We'll be praying for a smooth adoption process.

ManyBlessings said...

CONGRATULATIONS and praying all goes well!! :D
dawn

Heather A. said...

Chanda, I am just so thrilled for you, Zack and your three little boys. So glad that you guys have that opportunity to reunite your boys, even if the timing seems off.

You have so many life changing events taking place all in such a short time, and I've been thinking about you guys a lot lately. Sending love and prayers for a fast process and easy transition.

Heather A

Ericka said...

Thrilled for you and your boys!
Wonderful news!
Welcome to the world of three boys!
It's very fun, loud and rip-your-heart-out loving :)